“The woman that deliberates is lost.” -Joseph Addison
Tumbleweed told me the reason I don’t have more success against him when we’re rolling is that I hesitate, and it made me think of a study I’d heard about, which showed that the more options your brain has to choose from, the more difficult it is to make a decision, and it can sometimes lead to not making a choice at all. So, I think part of the problem is that the more techniques I learn in BJJ, the harder it is for me to decide what to do!
I mostly hesitate when I’m on offense, and its probably because as a smaller person, I’ve spent a lot of my time on defense, and I don’t have the same amount of experience from the other side. During positional grappling in the advanced class the past few weeks, I did well from the bottom, I was escaping all over the place, and it was almost instinctual, but when I was on top, I was over-thinking. I did attempt to do the techniques we recently practiced, but when I didn’t succeed, I was a little lost about what else to try, and I kept changing my mind. It seemed easier to be less hesitant and more aggressive on offense when I only knew a few submissions, because when all you have is a hammer, everything looks like nail, but when I started collecting more tools, it became increasingly difficult for me to decide which to use.
The other day, after Mike told me I shouldn’t hesitate, I did my best to stop over-analyzing, and just go for it. Although I wasn’t able to submit anyone in the advanced class, I did attempt to, and it seemed to make a positive difference when I tried to feel more than think. “If you think, you are late…” -Saulo Ribeiro
One thing The Professor has told me is “It won’t work if you don’t try.”, and it’s not that I don’t believe I can succeed, it’s just that there are so many techniques to choose from, and I hesitate because I don’t want to pick the wrong one, but I suppose any choice is better than none at all. I’ll have to keep working on not allowing my brain to prevent my body from doing what it’s trained to do, and then I might be able to see what I’m actually capable of, if I would just stop getting in my own way.