When I didn’t sign up for the last local BJJ tournament, I thought at some point I might change my mind, or regret not entering, but I never did, because I was perfectly happy not being stressed out, and eating whatever I wanted (as a result, I’m now up to 129 pounds!). I even considering retiring from competition permanently, but lately I’ve been thinking about how much simply preparing to compete has been beneficial to my training, let alone all the lessons I’ve learned on the competition mat.
Tumbleweed recently said that we need to find some old lady blue belts for me to compete with, and I responded “There aren’t any”, which I know isn’t exactly true, there just aren’t any around here. I’m almost 46, and the local women who compete are in their 20’s, but I think the fact that I’m even able to be competitive with them is pretty cool, and it’s not something I’ll be able to do forever, so I should probably get it while I can. Mike also pointed out that I have won against the current local women’s BJJ blue belt champion, who in addition to being much younger than I am, is also two weight classes above me, so maybe I don’t suck at competing as much as I think I do (but she was still a white belt when I beat her).
So, it looks like when the next local tournament rolls around, I might be facing my competition stress once again. Even just thinking about it makes me nervous, but although competing literally drives me crazy (and I do mean literally, not figuratively, if you don’t believe me, ask my husband!), I haven’t regretted a single time I’ve competed, and I’ve always gained something, even when I’ve lost.
“We gonna rock it ’til the wheels fall off.” -Dr. Dre feat. Nate Dogg