“Chains of habit are too light to be felt until they are too heavy to be broken.” -Warren Buffet
I wasn’t even able to go to BJJ class and just drill this week, because I’ve come down with a nasty cold, but it’s probably for the best, because my shoulder and hand are still being pains. If there’s something good about not getting to train (and there isn’t, but I’m trying to stay positive ;) it’s that it helps to dispel my silly notion that I would ever be able to voluntarily quit training Jiu-Jitsu.
When I’m not doing BJJ, I often think about it, read about it, watch videos about it, dream about it, talk about it, and write about it. It’s become a habit for me, which has helped me to be consistent in my training, but it also means that when I can’t go to class, it feels like something important is missing, and I crave it.
Since I started training at Lincoln BJJ, I haven’t been away for more than a week at a time (and usually no more than three days!), but stepping back allows me to see the big picture, without being distracted by my day-to-day struggles. When I take time off, I still study the game, and it’s easier for me to see my overall growth when I’m not getting my ass kicked all of the time, so absence really can make the heart grow fonder.
During the dark days in my journey, I entertain the thought that I could leave BJJ, but when I actually have to take a break, I realize that it’s become such a big part of my life, I wouldn’t know what to do without it! Missing training also helps me remember how much I enjoy Jiu-Jitsu, and why I’m still doing it after all these years, even though it’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.
“Now being without you
Takes a lot of getting used to
Should learn to live with it
But I don’t want to.” -Chicago