One of the white belts from Lincoln BJJ recently told me that they wouldn’t be training Jiu-Jitsu if they didn’t think they would eventually be good at it. Ah yes, I remember those days, back when I still believed that if I trained long enough, I would be good at Jiu-Jitsu someday, but I’ve been doing it for over five years now, and it hasn’t happened yet!
I’m certainly a lot better at Jiu-Jitsu than I used to be, but most of my BJJ experience still involves me getting beaten at almost every turn. I could blame it on being smaller and weaker than most of the people I train with, but I believe that good technique can overcome strength and size, and my technique just isn’t at that point yet.
Over three years ago, I wrote a post on Ginger Snaps talking about the fact that most people are not good at Jiu-Jitsu when they first start. I said that even if I was never good at it, I would still love it either way, and I stand by that statement to this day. I actually do still believe that someday my technique will be to the point where I would feel comfortable calling it “good”, but one of the things that keeps me motivated to improve is thinking that I suck! I feel as though I can’t quit until there’s nothing left to learn, nowhere else to go, and the nature of BJJ makes that impossible, so I just do my best to try to keep moving forward. I’m all about the journey, not the destination.
I do hope that one day the white belts and I will be good at Jiu-Jitsu, but if I’m not, I won’t quit because of it. Sucking at BJJ is kind of my thing, it’s what I do! In all seriousness, the positive benefits I gain from Jiu-Jitsu occur whether I’m good at it or not, or I wouldn’t still be doing it. Jiu-Jitsu is a game that I win just by playing!
“Can’t stop, won’t stop, no compromise.” -Beastie Boys