I had my mind made up that I was not going to register for the Circle of Iron BJJ tournament that’s coming up in three weeks, and I even had a bunch of excuses for why I didn’t want to, then two hours before the early registration ended last night, I signed up on a whim. Now the freaking out has begun!
I generally detest competing. I don’t think I’m a good competitor, and I honestly don’t know why I keep putting myself through it, except that if I quit, I’ll feel like I’m succumbing to fear, and I just can’t let myself get away with that.
What really changed my mind this time was I saw that some of the kids from LBJJC had entered, including a couple of the girls, and I decided it might be good for them to see me competing. I’m really going to try to just have fun at this tournament, and not have any expectations for myself, other than doing the best I can.
“The best way for us to cultivate fearlessness in our daughters and other young women is by example. If they see their mothers and other women going forward despite fear, they’ll know it’s possible.” -Gloria Steinem