Today is my 45th birthday. They say you’re only as old as you feel, and right now I feel pretty old. That might have something to do with the fact that The Professor worked us hard during BJJ class last night! Afterward he said “How do you know when you’ve done some good training? When you feel the way you do right now.” For me, that feeling was exhausted and battered, with a twinge of overheated.
Feeling old today probably has more to do with stressing about the number 45 than anything else, because training Jiu-Jitsu doesn’t normally make me feel old. It makes me feel tired, sore, frustrated, inadequate, and a little crazy for doing it, but not old. It actually makes me feel young. Thanks to BJJ I’m stronger and in better shape now than I’ve ever been! It also makes me feel empowered, excited, tough, brave, and a little badass for doing it.
When Greg promoted the kids at Lincoln BJJ, he told us adults to look at them and know that someday they would be better than all of us, because the younger you are when you start, the better you will eventually be. I guess that means since I didn’t start until I was almost forty, I was already behind the curve, but I’ve never thought of my age as a reason for being a slow learner. After five years in Jiu-Jitsu, I literally feel like a different person than when I started. I may be chronologically older, but I feel younger now.
Since I hope to still be doing BJJ into my 90s, at 45 years old I still have an entire lifetime left to learn! I may have found the path a little late, and I might walk it a little slower than others, but my journey rewards me just the same.
“Anyone who stops learning is old, whether at twenty or eighty. Anyone who keeps learning stays young.
The greatest thing in life is to keep your mind young.” -Henry Ford