I decided to take a look at the competitor list for the upcoming Best of the Best BJJ tournament, and I realized that I am the only person from my school who is signed up to compete. This makes me a little sad, not only because I would really like to see more of my teammates competing in tournaments outside of our school, but also because one is the loneliest number! How the heck am I supposed to win the team award all by myself? Amy won’t be there to coach me, and although I do think Conan and Ray will be at the tournament, they’ll be busy reffing. At least Joe will be there, so I won’t be totally alone.
There are four women signed up in the division I entered, the only problem is that there is no way I am going to make weight. I entered at 118<, but I’ve been gaining weight over the past couple of months (for no explicable reason), and my current weight is 125. Also, I thought they didn’t weigh in gi, but they do, so that will add a few pounds. I’m not a big fan of cutting weight, and I’m not even going to try. There is no one signed up in the next two weight classes above that (129< and 141<), so it looks like I will most likely be competing against a blue belt who weighs between 141-152 pounds, and who was the female absolute winner at the last tournament.
I can’t really blame my teammates for not wanting to compete, because I don’t want to, either. I really, really don’t! I should not have looked at the competitor list, because now in addition to my normal panic attacks, I am worried about injury. I wish I had never signed up. For reals.