Lately I’ve been contemplating the existence of this blog. Shihan says that talking about martial arts is “kuchi waza” (mouth technique), and that we should be doing not talking. So sometimes I feel like blogging makes me a dreaded “kuchi bushi” (mouth warrior).
Also, talking about myself all the time seems to reek with ego, and it feels a little wrong. I constantly struggle with wanting to share things from my personal experiences, which I hope may help or entertain people, and feeling like it’s just all about me. Me, me, me! Prior to blogging, I was an incredibly private person, so opening myself up to the entire freaking cyber world is pretty scary. It’s not always an easy or comfortable thing for me to do.
Everything I have ever said, or could ever say, about martial arts has probably already been said, and in much better words. There are millions of blogs out there like mine. So, why bother? Why blog? I don’t know, but in some way I feel like this is part of my martial journey. I am compelled to write these things down, and some people seem to enjoy reading them, so I blog on. A true “kuchi bushi” is someone who does a lot of talking and not a lot of training, which isn’t me. So as long as I keep doing, I think it should be alright for me to keep writing about it.