Keep on Keepin’ On

Lately I’ve been going through a crisis of confidence that led me to write Slowly but Surely on the Jiu-Jitsu Fighter blog. In that post I talked about my frustration with my grappling performance, but that is only a small part of the problem. I’ve been feeling inadequate on a larger scale, and I’ve questioned why I’m even writing this blog. I am an expert on nothing, and all I have to give are my thoughts.

Then I got an email in response to that post that has given me reason to keep fighting my insecurities. It was from one of our former jiu-jitsu students, and he told me that I had helped him to better understand his failures. By sharing my fears and flaws I helped him come to terms with his own. There is no better gift than to know that something I said has made a difference in someone’s life. Now if he would only come back to class and continue the struggle with me.

So I plod on. Sometimes I don’t know what I’m doing or why I’m doing it, but that’s okay. A lot of people seem to see martial arts as a hobby, a part-time diversion from life. To me, it is life. As long as I still breathe I will pursue this quest, and I will keep sharing my thoughts along the way. My only hope is that I can continue to inspire in the same way others have inspired me.

I’ll end with yet another great quote courtesy of Nok Su Kow

“A bird doesn’t sing because it has an answer, it sings because it has a song.”
– Maya Angelou

7 comments on “Keep on Keepin’ On

  1. Gina, another great post! The good thing is that you are not alone, I have been feeling the same way lately. The reason I am not as bothered by it is because the feeling has come and gone for years. I have learned to pick my sorry self up and found a way to make some positive changes. Maybe we expect too much from ourselves, we need to give ourselves some credit. I can't comment on your MA skills, but I do know that you motivate people, so focus on the journey, not the destination…

  2. "Hey there, Mr. Grumpy Gills. When life gets you down do you wanna know what you've gotta do? Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. What do we do? We swim, swim.Ha, ha, ha, ha, ho. I love to swim." – Dory

  3. LMAO! That is the best quote ever!Thank you, Robert, it's good to know that I'm not alone :) You reminded me that I sometimes miss the forest for the trees.

  4. It must have been the weather or the time of year or something. I spent the beginning of December completely convinced that I was failing in every aspect of my life, including karate. "Just keep swimming…." Wanted to let you know that I think (and remember my background!) a terrific writer and I look forward to reading your blogs. I'm glad you're doing this and think that you should consider expanding your scope. Just a thought.

  5. Thank you, that really means a lot coming from you, Doctor. I know you'll keep swimming, because you are a Pisces, and they swim both ways ;)I'm not really sure what you mean by "expanding my scope", though.

  6. I mean either eventually gathering your blog pieces and making a book, or even consider writing a longer piece. Self-help? Fiction? You write extremely well. I don't know how long it takes you, how many drafts, but the results are very good.

  7. Thank you very much, I will definitely keep that in mind. It doesn't take me much time, because usually when I write it comes straight from my brain to the page with very little rewriting. It's really good to know you think I'm worthy of a larger audience :-)

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